It's All in the head.

Nobody is gonna fight your battles if you don't fight your own.

You must've hit a high. But now when you are down and low,

You let out a cold sigh, thinking how did it all get so slow?

You remember the old times when it all used to be perfect.

All the happiness you enjoyed, and small pains you could neglect.

While murdering the time when it was abundant you missed an under-tone

Nobody is gonna fight your battles if you don't fight your own.

The success had faded a long time back, you were living in an illusion.

It was wilful, not involuntary, the chosen sad state of delusion.

They asked you to stitch it in time and save the other nine.

But you didn't stop your high horse, blindly consoling, It will all be fine.

And now that it all shatters, bringing you in this risky zone,

Nobody is gonna fight your battles if you don't fight your own.

Although the sun disappears by the night it does rise again the next day.

Continuity keeps prevailing in its own constant and subtle way.

Maybe you did get fooled by ignoring the dimension of your time instants?

Just in case it helps, "They're limited.", with very few other constants.

You could've spent them all on the skills and virtues you could hone.

Nobody is gonna fight your battles if you don't fight your own.

You have to seek the clarity, disparity you gotta let go.

For all the things that you gotta do, you have to make it a point to show.

As the rabbit didn't win the race because it stopped before the finish line.

Be the rabbit but don't stop, because that is the only way you can shine.

Challenges are not just yours. They are faced by everyone you've ever known.

Nobody is gonna fight your battles if you don't fight your own.

Does progress make you complacent? A disaster while moving ahead!!

Why don't you just make a deal with your conscience, instead?

Teach your head to not stop at progress, but to keep running until no more it can sweat.

Because its a situation, where you yourself are your biggest threat.

It always was and always will be the mental mettle that has to be shown.

Nobody is gonna fight your battles if you don't fight your own.

आज़ादी ?

आज आज़ादी को उनहत्तर  साल पूरे हुए हैं । देश में जश्न का माहौल होना चाहिए। आज़ादी है भई ! आसानी से थोड़े  ही मिलती  है। और फिर बात भी हो रही है तो "भारत" की आज़ादी की । ऐसा देश जिसे प्रगतिशील देशों में एक युवा देश के रूप में देखा जाता है । और फिर जब युवा ही देश में बहुसंख्यक हों तो आज़ादी की बात पर जश्न मनना तो बनता है । ऐसे युवा जिन्हें देश की महानता पर कोई शक या शंका नहीं है, और न ही शंका है अपनी आज़ादी पर। फिर भी कुछ चीजें मजबूर करती हैं ये सोचने पर कि आखिर आज़ादी है क्या?

कुछ प्रश्न.....

क्या सड़क पर पान की पिचकारी मार पाना आज़ादी है? या दूसरों को पिचकारी मारने से मना करना आज़ादी है? या दूसरों की पिचकारी को विवश होकर झेलना आज़ादी है?

क्या चौराहे पर यातायात सिग्नल का पालन करना आज़ादी है ? या सिग्नल को तोड़ देना आज़ादी है? या सिग्नल का पालन कर रहे व्यक्ति के पीछे खड़े होकर बार बार हॉर्न बजा कर उसे सिग्नल तोड़ने के लिए विवश करना आज़ादी है?

क्या उसी सिग्नल पे छोटे बच्चे को फटे हाल स्थिति में अखबार बेचते देखना आज़ादी है ? या उस बच्चे के द्वारा अखबार बेचा जाना आज़ादी है ? या उस बच्चे का पढ़ने-लिखने की उम्र में पेट भरने के लिए ऐसे काम करने को विवश होना आज़ादी है ?

क्या उसी अखबार में छपी एक बाढ़ की खबर को पढ़ना और उसे नज़रअंदाज़ कर देना आज़ादी है ? या उस बाढ़ को इसलिए नज़रअंदाज़ करना क्योंकि उसे दूरदर्शन पर नहीं दिखाया गया, आज़ादी है ? या समाचार चैनलों का उस खबर को तूल ही न देना आज़ादी है ?

क्या उसी समाचार चैनल पर, चैनल द्वारा कुछ लोगों  की चिल्ला-चोट को प्रसारित कर पाना आज़ादी है ? या उस चिल्ला-चोट में भाग लेने वालों का आपस में हाथापाई कर पाना आज़ादी है ? या उन चैनलों पर समाचारों के स्थान पर सास बहु और साज़िशों के बारे में देखना, दिखाना आज़ादी है ?

क्या उसी टी.वी. के किसी चैनल पर अंधविश्वासों से भरा कोई कार्यक्रम देखना आज़ादी है ? या उस चैनल का उस कार्यक्रम को प्रसारित कर पाना आज़ादी है ? या उस कार्यक्रम को देखकर अन्धविश्वास जाग्रत करना आज़ादी है ?

क्या उन अंधविश्वासों से प्रेरित होकर उनका पालन करना आज़ादी है ? या उन अंधविश्वासों का विरोध करने वाले किसी व्यक्ति की हत्या करना आज़ादी है ? या उस व्यक्ति की हत्या के विरोध में दिए हुए सम्मान को लौटना आज़ादी है ?

क्या सोशल मीडिया पर अपने विचार व्यक्त कर पाना आज़ादी है ? या उन विचारों से आहात होकर विचार व्यक्त करने वाले को  हवालात की सैर करवाना आज़ादी है ? या बिना किसी ताथ्यिक पुष्टि के सोशल मीडिया पर  किसी भी पोस्ट को सच मान लेना आज़ादी है ? 

क्या उसी सोशल मीडिया पर चिर-विरोधी नेताओं का एक दूसरे की भर्त्सना कर पाना आज़ादी है ? या उन नेताओं के कार्य क्षेत्र में उनका विरल ही शक्ल दिखाना आज़ादी है ? या उन नेताओं का साधारण जनता को रिश्वत देने के लिए विवश करना आज़ादी है ?

क्या उन नेताओं का संवाददाताओं द्वारा पर्दाफाश कर पाना आज़ादी है? या उन संवाददाताओं द्वारा सत्य को छुपा पाना आज़ादी है? या उन संवाददाताओं द्वारा बाढ़ पीड़ितों से संवेदनहीन होकर पूछना कि "आप कैसा महसूस कर रहे हैं ?" आज़ादी है?

क्या सेना के प्रयासों का श्रेय नेताओं के द्वारा ले लिया जाना आज़ादी है? या सेना के द्वारा मारे गए आतंकी की मौत पर जनता का मातम मनना आज़ादी है? या मातम मनाते हुए, जाना द्वारा सेना पर ही पथराव कर देना आज़ादी है?

क्या धर्म के नाम पर देश को माँ का दर्ज़ा न देना आज़ादी है? या देशभक्ति के भाव को पूर्णतया एक ही वाक्यांश से जोड़कर देखना आज़ादी है? या उसपर धार्मिक सियासत खेलना आज़ादी है ?

क्या किसी पशु विशेष का मांस खा पाना आज़ादी है ? या उस पशु विशेष के मांस को ग्रहण करने वाले को स्वायत्त होकर मृत्यु दंड दे  देना आज़ादी है ? या किसी पशु विशेष को धर्म से जोड़ना आज़ादी है ?

हम आज़ाद हैं.....  सच में ???

"हम आज़ाद हैं" बोलना आसान है, और सुनने में भी अच्छा भी लगता है।  लेकिन ये वाक्य २ प्रश्न उठता है।  जिसमे से एक के "उत्तर" में ऊपर कुछ प्रश्न आप पढ़ ही चुके हैं, और जो दूसरा प्रश्न है, वो है कि "हम" में कौन आता है?

भौतिक रूप से हर भारतवासी परतंत्र नहीं है । भारत एक स्वतंत्र देश है ।और इसी परिभाषा से हर भारतवासी स्वतंत्र देश का नागरिक है। लेकिन आज़ादी कभी भी केवल भौतिक नहीं हो सकती। आज़ादी व्यक्ति के मन से होती है, और विचारों से भी।  वैचारिक आज़ादी के बगैर यदि कोई मनुष्य स्वयं को आज़ाद मानता है, तो यह केवल एक विरोधाभास से बढ़कर और कुछ नहीं। 

परतंत्र होने के पहले हमारे पास भौतिक रूप से आज़ादी तो थी और वैचारिक रूप से भी। लेकिन इन दोनों के हनन के पश्चात और आज़ादी के लिए पुनः लड़ने के उपरांत जो आज़ादी हमारे लिए हमारे देश के बलिदानी वीरों ने जीती उसे हमने केवल भौतिकता की जंजीरों में जकड़ा हुआ छोड़ दिया है, और वैचारिक स्वतंत्रता से देश का आम नागरिक अभी भी दूर ही प्रतीत होता है।  

वैचारिक स्वतंत्रता के आने के बाद भी सब कुछ सही हो जाएगा ऐसा नहीं है। लेकिन वैचारिक स्वतंत्रता का क्रियान्वन बदलाव लाएगा, इस बदलाव के लिए महत्वपूर्ण कदम वैचारिक बंधनों की ज़ंजीरों को तोड़ना है। फिलहाल , समय की मांग है वैचारिक स्वतंत्रता से क्रांति लाने की। जब तक  स्वतंत्रता के साथ वैचारिक स्वतंत्रता का मिलाप नहीं होगा, तब तक दो ही प्रश्नों पर हम फंसे रह जाएंगे,  क्या हम आज़ाद हैं ? और अगर हैं भी तो इस आज़ादी के मायने आखिर हैं क्या? और फिर वो आज़ादी भी आज़ादी कैसी, जो चंद  प्रश्नों के भी उत्तर न दे पाए। 

और हाँ.... स्वतंत्रता दिवस की हार्दिक शुभकामनाएं....... :D  

-ऐश्वर्य 

A Selfish Post

There is nothing new in this post. The thing that this post is about is something way too sensitive to just write a post about. A mere post is nothing that can change the thing that needs to be changed. This mere post cannot even be a prelude to initiate the change that needs to be initiated. It is also not sufficient to even make people remember this thing. Mostly people do remember this thing but tend to clear their buffers and fill them with stuff within their reach. No hard feelings against this tendency. It's only natural to do so. So, after mentioning of the futility of this post, you might be wondering why am I even writing this post, the title says it all. It's a selfish post to let it all out from the inside to make some space. After all there is nothing too old in this post either.

A group of people united together to call themselves "Students" in some other language, in some nation near our country, some 2-3 decades ago. This group was a fighter for the people from amongst the people against the invaders who were trying to plunder their homeland. This group was supported by other neighboring countries as well. Then there was a time when this group used to do what was right and this was intended as well. But it couldn't handle the momentum of power and swayed away from it's path. Main reason being the lack of proper EDUCATION among the students. This irony is just way too baffling. By now if you are feeling that these statements are some figment of fiction, some stories of some alien colonies from out of the world (which I know you didn't think.. I just wanted to make the post a bit "Universal" :P ), then let me take you back to the small continent of Asia (a small part of the Universe), where we can find the group of students in the country of Afghanistan, called Taliban.

Now coming to the reason of writing this thing up. Few days ago Amjad Sabri a Qawwal of the league of the great Sabri brothers was shot dead. Cause of this shooting was pertaining to blasphemy. Responsibitity of this was taken by the TTP. The Pakistani version of this group of students, which is just a duplication of the original gone wrong, like real real bad. So, singing something contextually religious and getting yourself killed for it by the alleged religious police of your place is not "Ironic" if you are the followers of different religions. But a paradox creeps in when you two follow the same religion. When a crowd is under educated and is given a gun, every thing that they can't do or they don't like becomes blasphemy for them. Apparently, they get so despised by the blasphemy of others that they kill them. And then after killing the people they get so despised by their own sins that they try yo kill everyone around them and themselves as well.

Being a big fan of Sufi music and Qawwali personally, it feels strange when someone who was just expressing his feelings of gratitude and faith in his Lord gets killed, just because his prayers were awesomely musical. It is futile to try and find logic in these activities, because there isn't any. The root cause for all this seems to be only one. "MISINTERPRETATION". When you are not capable enough to understand what meaning has to be taken up from whatever is written in whichever holy book, you shouldn't be expected to not pick up a gun or not be a suicide bomber or not kill innocent children in a school just because they were kids of some army officials, who were stopping you to do stupid things and killing the ones of your own kind. Or maybe on some other day you shouldn't be expected to just  not start firing in some place full of people because you are a trained homophobe and others present there are not, and justify the act in the name of God. The instances to name are many.

All in all the point is that a bad seed can never bear a tree with good fruits. And, it's nobody's fault as well. But, to check this prevailing ignorance among people, the need is to make the understanding and interpretation of the right meaning of whatever is wrongly understood by them. But to do that could again be blasphemy, and maybe some other crime as well in the "Misinterpreted Dictionaries" that are already there. 

There is only one solution again.. Quality Education. 

That's it.. Everything's pretty much out for now.. Thanks for reaching till the end :P

-Aishwariy

Insomnia

Completely random thoughts surround the mind under the cover of a deep sleep.The sleep may neither be sound, nor be fulfilling, because of numerous factors. Be it the situation in which sleep was attained, or because of the thoughts that surrounded and sabotaged the sleep, disguised under the masks of the gentle soothers, stabbing in the back with the knives of vulnerabilities and insecurities. The sleep may sure as hell be sound and normal as well. (discussing that would defeat the purpose of this blog. :P)

It could be a small memory, (not quantitatively, explained later), that decreases the randomness of the thoughts, applying constraints over the wild sea of the synaptic misfires that are making the (mis)connections, leading to a feeling of detachment from the senses, completely making you let go of the petty situation in which the sleep was attained, and taking you away from the very surroundings of the dim lit space in which you found yourselves just after you slithered into the sleep, completely unaware of what memories are going to create a web of constraints into your gullible head that you are going to interpret as a dream. But it is the lack of sleep that leads to the misfiring neurons. The sole reason for why sometimes the real world and your dreams seem to combine together to form a hybrid and delusional world for you. May be the concept of Deja Vu is also in some way related to this hybrid world, where nanoseconds start making the difference and you can't even realize that what you just saw and feel that it had happened earlier but it didn't really happen earlier.

When I woke up in the train, all of a sudden, travelling all alone in a train for the first time, frankly speaking I was rattled. I do have various theories for that(Most of the times I do.. :P), one of them being the sleeplessness from the last two nights. The day of the first night, was taken away by the Minor Project Report. And then the partial night by mulling over the project. The rest of the night was still a part where I don't understand the decision I made completely. On the surface, staying the night at the Hostel was to avoid sleeping while driving back home (Believe me!! I really could.. :P) on the advice of some wise friends.(Guys!! Comment if you read this :P). Then the next day, after submission of the project in the morning, there was something dragging me away from home, it could have been the usual procrastinative surge, but actually it wasn't. It was some other mechanism, trying to avoid anything that could turn into anything overwhelming. The mechanism backfired anyways, because two almost full days in the College which you are about to leave in less than another year can't be less overwhelming than anything. The true reasons were actually quite surprising. Anyway, being rattled no more appeared to be just some co-incidence, but it seemed more like a choice that I had made, maybe because I tried running away, as staying could have been "overwhelming"(yeah right :P).

Suddenly a man passed and I tried to match his face in the databases. But the query returned a tuple of NULL values. And that was the moment I got the connection to my senses back, which made me realize, this null value phenomenon was going to be a substantial part for the next few days. After being awoke when I went to wash my face, It was probably for the first time, when I was happy to see a face that was familiar. So happy that I had a smile on my face (No kidding). It was something I couldn't comprehend then and right now as well. But maybe somethings are better when left unexplained and kept safe in the repositories of unmatched experiences.

-Aishwariy

Juvenile ?

There is a buzz about India these days, that India is a country of the youth. The young population being very large in numbers and promising at the same time is considered to denote energy, and novel thoughts and perceptions for the country. A whole new horizon is in sight and with everyone being so enthusiastic, a new dawn awaits. This phase comes and goes for every country and may also be called one of the most efficient times for a country. Although it's a surety that this phase will pass, apparently for India this phase will pass much more quickly. Why? just for a simple reason. That is the increase in the mental maturity of the youth. Or at least what the Youth thinks as "Maturity". It seems the youth is in the 'self- destruct' mode of "Development". (pun intended)

Two quick facts:
The rate of suicide among senior secondary students has increased. Crimes committed by "Juveniles" are increasing, which has even led the Court to pass a verdict on the trial of a Juvenile as an adult as per how heinous the crime was. These are some highly depressing things. Anyhow, lets dig a little deeper for a reason as there usually is one(at least :P) behind something most of the times.

Some days back, a kid was drilled in the head(Yes! Literally drilled) by another, reason being allegedly the drilled one liked someone the driller didn't want him to like. And as I say "a kid" I am referring to a "6th Grader". (Shocked?) . On some another day in a different bunch of kids, A scratch on the ego of a kid proved to be fatal for his friend. Let's say that whatever these kids thought they were doing was mature, but isn't is naive to think that you are mature when you are not actually?(food for thought :P) So where from are these kids getting a notion of what is mature and what not and what is to be done to satisfy the ego issues?

The Know It All Paradox:
This is a feat of the modern day kids. (Depth Alert! Take a deep breath before continuing :P )The Know it all paradox simply states that if a person claims to know at least something about everything, then he must also know something about anything that he doesn't know. But then if he knows nothing about what he doesn't know, then he doesn't know something about everything. Moreover if he knows something about the things he doesn't know, then again he doesn't know something about everything. (Yeah right! take a moment :P )

Then there are suicide cases where kids say they are under severe pressure and can't handle it. To kid that I would say, you almost did a great job assessing the pressure. And that's all what was required of you. Nothing else that you did was actually necessary. It was not a life and death situation and was made up completely by your mind and no one else. 

And what is even worse is what they are doing is a 'mature' thing, leaving everyone alone(including themselves), escaping from the alleged pressures that they have to face every time they are doing something. However, the way they choose to do this isn't something that should be acceptable. Well to be fair enough, after being in a similar situation some day or the other, I personally feel that we can't say that everything was the kids' fault. 

The Blame Game:
Lets play a little blame game.(Yeah Like you didn't see it coming :P). Everyone (almost :P) agrees that the system, the school students are subjected to, these days is not flawless which it must be, mustn't it? I mean you are a developing country relying on the youth and are not even able to educate the youth in a proper way then what in the heaven's name will your future be? Another 45 year old Youth icon ? or another 28 year old student who claims he is poor and apparently is not doing anything for that? (Apart from sensationalizing of course :P). Or some other bunch of people who find being in their own country so 'shameful' that they shout out things about mincing of the country into pieces? 

With the economic conditions getting tougher and the parents staying out most of  the time to earn bread, it's a huge responsibility for a school to work on the moral aspect of the character of the students. But what are the schools providing? A recent case was of a Final Practical Exam where the external asked the kids to sing and dance in lieu of the viva. This was a 'reputed' so called "Urban school" from the Country Capital. Let's better not talk about what the situation in the rural areas is. Just believe me it is much more frightening.It is alleged that the isolation of the kids from their parents and the things that matter is because of the advent of technology. Kids use so much of smart things that they end up believing they are smart themselves, but sadly enough the reality is not as it appears to them.

Added to this is what is served on the Televisions and the Media these days. Agreed to the point that the kids are not forced to watch whatever is shown on the TV they can always change the channel (Of Course :P ). I prefer to bring to light the fact that after bearing with a blue cat from a Japanese TV show that teaches (yeah right ! ) stuff to the kids, the kids watch stuff which isn't even meant for them to comprehend. Crime shows do not always make them think on how will they get away from being murdered. But every time when in the end the criminal is caught, it may challenge their wit on how to get away with murder (pun intended :P ).

Where do we Go now?:
The need of the hour is to understand the disguised truth behind this depressing situation and if at all it raises your eyebrows for even a single millisecond, try thinking something that will make things better. And at the least, whenever you find an opportunity, just try to talk through the situation of a kid in distress. Because it's the future of the country we are dealing with.

-Aishwariy

India and Trypophobia.

Disclaimer: Following is a blog post based on too many "could be"s. Definitely, most of the possibilities are absurd, and are open for interpretation as well as discussion.


So, lets begin with a buzzword in the field of biological sciences from last year "Trypophobia". Trypophobia is claimed as the phenomenon of  having a phobia of regular/irregularly shaped and spaced clustered patterns. It was more commonly promoted as the fear of holes among those, who were really busy most the time (pun intended.) checking their facebook news feeds for something new. Rather lets call it on "Social Media" ... sounds official(kind of.. :P).

Trypophobia " not a phobia officially " is indeed quite absurd, Reasons being the strange hype created for it, the usage of photoshop to disguise disgust as fear, and the biggest one of all, circulating it all over the Social media to make even the narcissistic ones think for a while if they "suffer" from this phobia. This was mostly all about the issues from abroad. However, Trypophobia seems a bit more relevant to India.

In India, we have some(I understand this word is an understatement. :P ) roads that may rattle up (in either of the meanings.) any driver from the inside as well as outside. The fear can be seen on the face of the person driving the cars on such roads. The sounds of the internals of the passengers are a story that only the passengers can tell. So, this fear is quite justified, in terms of it's version in India the fear of "great Hol(e)y Roads". Its being called "trypophobia" that is close to '"trip"ophobia'(Just Assuming) fears of trips or voyages.. and the other way, fear of tripping over a hole. :P...

Having stated that, now a days, road travelers face strange kind of issues while driving. Like bloody red fluids floating around their personal spaces and on the roads, special stunts by the local biking "professionals" (pun intended.). And expert comments like "drive while looking behind.." etc.. etc... We'll come to that some other day.

Coming back to India and Trypophobia, India observes it's National flower as Lotus. This could make us call Lotus Seeds as the National Seeds.(Just Assuming.)  Trypophobia has a special relation with India in this sense as well. Lotus Pods have some sort of holes that can be described as "regularly spaced". Moreover, most of the horrifying photoshopped images making people wonder about this phobia were based on these pods, making these holes appear out of no where on strange places. This makes a really strong bond between India and Trypophobia. It could be declared as a national phobia. Although, the phobias of corruption, starvation and proper running of the parliament give it a really tough competition.

There is a very fine line between disgust and fear. You could be disgusted by the things that the people intend to show you in the name of a test for trypophobia and may even feel like throwing up. But the point is that are you really afraid? Or is it just the mind game of some notorious braggadocio that is bothering you. Its just a matter of time and thought that you give to the legitimacy of anything that you see on the Social Media. These things can simply shape up your opinions and challenge the open-mindedness, which becomes a point of vulnerability here.
So just before thinking about being scared of "holes"... just think don't you have something better to be afraid of ?

-Aishwariy.

The First NightOut....

It began somewhere in the mid of the 3rd Sem. It was an instinctive wave for everyone to attend the Regionals of The Techfest, people being aware of the awesomeness of the fest were exuberant for it. Rather the atmosphere too was having a petrichor of zest flowing all around. The happiness of being in societies, the sense of accomplishment by organising successful mass bunks, the feeling of freedom as some other friends were not so free to do that.. and the most interesting feel of all.. having a pack of juniors to call ourselves seniors....
Sounds like a treat doesn't it?

This instinctive wave was having some nice media to propagate through. Those who could manage to attend the techfests in the IITs in the previous semester were the sole media of wave propagation.
This wave was in a new frequency range for my frequency filter, which was still stuck in filtering Rotational Motion and Organic Chemistry along with some P-block and D-Block elements. (Post JEE Symptoms). A transition was required to re-define the frequencies for the Filter. This transition had a work function which was something way too greater than what was provided by the usual diversions of Go-Karting or a stroll in the Mall or having Cold-Coffees* at Sharma(Chinese). The transition needed something big. A frequency large enough to make a big energy transition.

So it all melted down somehow to the Vortex (and to a meagre extent, to CodeBlitz too) in Technocalypse(Regional of Techfest at CDGI Indore). The most interesting  feature of this transition was the implicitly enforced Night Out about which nobody knows a why or a how...

People At Technocalypse :P

So it started with Boarding the bus for Indore at 1:30 AM**. Resulting into one of the coolest ever bus rides that I had. The ride left us Roaming around on the roads of Indore at 4:00 in the morning, searching for a Maggi shop :P . And finally, an awesome Rickshaw ride to the Bus Stand that morning...the cherry on the top :P .... apparently too much for someone having their first NightOut..

Some Place in Indore

This changed a lot of things. But one fact remained constant...

Its always been Sleep that gives energy to the Brain....

Every other speculation about this fact or any such controversy is a myth that is being forcefully created with not even a single evidence of existence or is just a co-incident happening going in some parallel Universe.

Another Place in Indore :P

The day at CDGI witnessed high temperature, that was complemented by the unexpected evening showers. Something quite similar to what happened to Proboteshwar's^ run in the vortex arena***. It went in too hot to handle, but froze up while coming out.In Either case the equilibrium didn't remain disturbed. Hail Le Chatelier's

And When We were Done...

The night out was followed by
The insane hour of trying to code at the CodeBlitz...
Some Messy Canteen Food...
An ultimate battle of who knows it all about Indore....

Cool public transport insanity amidst the showers.....

^ProBoteshwar

Later that evening we boarded the bus back to Bhopal.
Apparently the transition energy provided by this "Night Out" was something that was just at the threshold of enabling new frequencies to be detected through the filter.This trip did open up new horizons, teaching a lot of stuff.

However, The coolest discovery of this trip were Friends :)

And the joy of the Most Technical Night Out Ever...

-Aishwariy

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References:
*Should be Better Known as Astro-Physics Simulator.
**It was AM. No typo there :D
***This was an Illusionistic Picture :P yes.... just a Picture on which Proboteshwar was supposed to run.
#Pics Credits : Naresh Kumar :D

The Battle Within

In the darkest night before the worst fight.

Just remember what you thought and what you were taught.

Remember how you fought and the victories you caught.

For there will be a moment which will be right And someday in some fight

you will realize the plight of the bright light

which has always glossed and never lost.

But had to prove which it didn’t needed as such,

That it will always conquer the darkness and doesn't need to do much.

The darkness may seem compelling and your inner-self wailing

Keep the warrior alive and keep on the strive.

For someday in some fight when you actually realize the plight

The urge and the surge to fight

The abundance and redundancy to avoid.

Time will pass as it always has, It won't stop you can't ever chase.

This plight will not go away though

All that you have to do is show.

Show how capable you are, For some point in the far,

There will be a day you wont hate, but just sit back and speculate

All that was done was not in vain, but never think of this thought again.

For you have to go long and keep yourself strong.

The strength should keep you apace, for you have to keep a trace.

A trace of every step taken, A trace of all the mountains shaken.

A trace of all the wars fought, A trace of the enemy's every slaught.

This trace will make a base, on which you may someday daze.

You could get what you wanted, you chose something which wasn't granted.

This is what is fate and you make it yourself, don't contemplate.

There is always a high and a low.For there should be a flow.

You may find a remedy, but will know that you aren’t ready

For you are a warrior, FIGHT the war.

Go to the field and take a scar.

This is what you are made for

This is what everyone like you waits for.

Maybe you are different and not comfortable.

But always remember you were and are capable

It's been always and will be a wave, it’s your identity to be brave.

Crests follow the troughs. The troughs will make you tough.

You have the power of the bright light.

The light that is always right.

The only plight of light is to fight.

To keep on fighting is your right.

There will be a battle inside.

Never keep what you stand for, aside.

For every battle will prove your mettle,

And distinguish you, just don't settle

 

The world needs you and is at stake. It's your call to make or break.

The focus that you had lost, should be back by now from the frost.

Keep going for that shouldn't be a strain.

Go ahead there's a Victory to gain.       

 -Aishwariy

Thinking Over Over-thinking!!!

Sometimes, when you are messed up, all that you need is a good old flat tyre,that compels you to sit and pointlessly stare at all the stuff that's going on around while getting the tyre fixed. This flat tyre is indeed an escape from whatever else is going on in your life.It may sound strange but ,this pointless stare is actually not that blunt as it seems to be at the time when it actually happens. It's sharpness is way too under-rated.However, the stare does only one thing. It makes you think.

As there is nothing else to do, you start thinking along the lines, over the lines and around them too. Then all of a sudden when you are not even aware of it, the thinking turns to over-thinking. So, now you start over thinking on some stuff, which probably is not such a strange behaviour at all.Everyone does over react sometimes, its only human to do so.

The struggle starts when the third phase is entered, when you start thinking over over-thinking. This stage is reached when there is nothing left to think about. So basically, the mind is out of thoughts, but thinking something at the same time, the situation similar to the Schrödinger's cat. This is exactly when most of your inner fears start to surface up, because of the agitation of the thoughts inside the mind, just as it's said about fear, it's all in the "mind".... Its us who define the parameters for our fright and worries.

This recursive procedure of thinking becomes fatal for inner peace, as soon as the third phase begins. Surviving this phase can be easy if you skip to really think over over thinking and proceed to the fourth and final stage, which is the threshold of something productive which is about to come.

This phase of over-thinking over over-thinking. This stage may make you restless, make you go insane and you may feel the need to override this whole process, but the end product that comes out of this process, howsoever ironic it may sound, is actually Inner peace and enlightenment.The enlightenment is all about the realisation that too much of stuff is going on around us, about which we don't know much. Its rather about absolution. An absolution that is just some food for thought, rather thoughts that keep coming your way. Its just this enlightenment that freshens you up, and makes all the messes go away from the mind frame. This voyage through the depths of the mind is the sole thing making you realise all that you are, and all that you can....

And then all of a sudden, the tyre gets fixed too and all thoughts of absolution vanish away....
What leaves is the mess from the head and what remains is a fresh mind, ready to face all thats thrown at it....

Well that's enough of thinking over over-thinking for one time I guess :P ....

Feedbacks welcome as always...

Aishwariy

The Beginning

Finally, I am through the creation part of this very first post of mine, it excites me to a certain extent. However, feels more like an accomplishment to break the ice with this post to the blogging  world.

This post waited for around five years, after I was advised by an inspiration to do something like this. These five years have seen a gradual decrease in my confrontation skills. Though don't exactly need them in here for this. The post actually is inspired by many factors, that led me start something. Something new, abstract, interesting. Eventually, they will find a place in the blog with time.

Beginning is claimed to complete half the work. Well, that's exactly what happens, apparently, when you happen to have a pizza with your best friends. Suddenly, the moment of beginning and the moment of the "last slice remaining" become consecutive. That makes the work completion more than 3/4 th just with the beginning. Exceptional Case!!!. Interesting.

Apart from this, considering the statement true, there is a strange relation between the two said "halves" of the work. One gets done with the beginning. The other half is not as humble as the first. There is no guaranteed time for completion of the second. well, that makes me curious about this division. How is it supposed to be considered!!!

Well, retrospection reports say that this statement isn't for physical completion of the task. It has more to do with the psych of a person. The Outlook towards a task changes as the task is pursued. This change in outlook can actually do wonders and reduce the completion time exponentially!!!

A Beginning that's what is something for sure happening everyday.

That's why first things first. The beginning is actually all it takes to do something. Provided (yes, terms and conditions applied :P ) the work is pursued till it's completion. It's the icing of consistency on the cake of beginning made up of will that is required to do any stuff. A way is always there and it has to be definitely searched for but it can be found eventually.

Because,

If you are a Warrior, you have to fight the war. Go to the field and take a Scar.

Things do fall in place with time, all that has to be done is to contract all of the courage, belief and confidence and go through the beginning of whatever has to be gone through.

This was just the beginning. All those who reached down till here are expected to kindly do share their feedback with me. Yes that's way too valuable. :)

Aishwariy