Completely random thoughts surround the mind under the cover of a deep sleep.The sleep may neither be sound, nor be fulfilling, because of numerous factors. Be it the situation in which sleep was attained, or because of the thoughts that surrounded and sabotaged the sleep, disguised under the masks of the gentle soothers, stabbing in the back with the knives of vulnerabilities and insecurities. The sleep may sure as hell be sound and normal as well. (discussing that would defeat the purpose of this blog. :P)
It could be a small memory, (not quantitatively, explained later), that decreases the randomness of the thoughts, applying constraints over the wild sea of the synaptic misfires that are making the (mis)connections, leading to a feeling of detachment from the senses, completely making you let go of the petty situation in which the sleep was attained, and taking you away from the very surroundings of the dim lit space in which you found yourselves just after you slithered into the sleep, completely unaware of what memories are going to create a web of constraints into your gullible head that you are going to interpret as a dream. But it is the lack of sleep that leads to the misfiring neurons. The sole reason for why sometimes the real world and your dreams seem to combine together to form a hybrid and delusional world for you. May be the concept of Deja Vu is also in some way related to this hybrid world, where nanoseconds start making the difference and you can't even realize that what you just saw and feel that it had happened earlier but it didn't really happen earlier.
-Aishwariy
It could be a small memory, (not quantitatively, explained later), that decreases the randomness of the thoughts, applying constraints over the wild sea of the synaptic misfires that are making the (mis)connections, leading to a feeling of detachment from the senses, completely making you let go of the petty situation in which the sleep was attained, and taking you away from the very surroundings of the dim lit space in which you found yourselves just after you slithered into the sleep, completely unaware of what memories are going to create a web of constraints into your gullible head that you are going to interpret as a dream. But it is the lack of sleep that leads to the misfiring neurons. The sole reason for why sometimes the real world and your dreams seem to combine together to form a hybrid and delusional world for you. May be the concept of Deja Vu is also in some way related to this hybrid world, where nanoseconds start making the difference and you can't even realize that what you just saw and feel that it had happened earlier but it didn't really happen earlier.
When I woke up in the train, all of a sudden, travelling all alone in a train for the first time, frankly speaking I was rattled. I do have various theories for that(Most of the times I do.. :P), one of them being the sleeplessness from the last two nights. The day of the first night, was taken away by the Minor Project Report. And then the partial night by mulling over the project. The rest of the night was still a part where I don't understand the decision I made completely. On the surface, staying the night at the Hostel was to avoid sleeping while driving back home (Believe me!! I really could.. :P) on the advice of some wise friends.(Guys!! Comment if you read this :P). Then the next day, after submission of the project in the morning, there was something dragging me away from home, it could have been the usual procrastinative surge, but actually it wasn't. It was some other mechanism, trying to avoid anything that could turn into anything overwhelming. The mechanism backfired anyways, because two almost full days in the College which you are about to leave in less than another year can't be less overwhelming than anything. The true reasons were actually quite surprising. Anyway, being rattled no more appeared to be just some co-incidence, but it seemed more like a choice that I had made, maybe because I tried running away, as staying could have been "overwhelming"(yeah right :P).
Suddenly a man passed and I tried to match his face in the databases. But the query returned a tuple of NULL values. And that was the moment I got the connection to my senses back, which made me realize, this null value phenomenon was going to be a substantial part for the next few days. After being awoke when I went to wash my face, It was probably for the first time, when I was happy to see a face that was familiar. So happy that I had a smile on my face (No kidding). It was something I couldn't comprehend then and right now as well. But maybe somethings are better when left unexplained and kept safe in the repositories of unmatched experiences.
-Aishwariy
