The Strange Choice

For Every break through You were broken thorough.
With every big blow, you were taken down deep below.
Because all the assaults were below the knees,
And there wasn't anyone to listen to your pleas.
Because messing up everything was an art you mastered.
Because you sought more than what you could foster.
For you crossed so many lines that you apparently lost the count.
You could only wish you could set a recovery point just before the unmount.

When your decision was clouded you made a strange choice,
A choice that no one could ever accept and rejoice.
The assault was planned but was still spontaneous,
The arrow could have been blunt but it was mordacious
Twas A choice you repent and shouldn't have made
Twas A choice you know, did cut through like a blade
And you are left with memories which you never want to fade

Was there really a need to come up with a reason?
A reason that everyone else thought as a treason!!
For breaking the trust of the few who trusted you
For making them believe it wasn't a wise choice they made "for" you
Now the only Knight who can fight for yourself is you.
The only fight you have to win is inside of you.
When the chips are down, it melts down to what should have been done by you

Silence is voracious, It engulfs all the peace
The head starts to spin and all of a sudden does freeze
The thoughtless void inside generated the devil in the first place
But you made the choice to not control it, and fell sorely from grace
The "could be"s are an infinite possibility,
You need to move ahead to maintain the continuity.
A continuity which will never be the same,
Because you will remember you lost something that wasn't just a game

You were given all the chances to take a stand
But you didn't stand by them and took an errand
Because the timidity that infiltrated you could never leave
And you still wonder from where you got it up your sleeve
Now it's hard even for yourself to decide what exactly you do believe
You knew it all and made a wrong move, was it on purpose?
Because you knew you were jumping the gun and you knew it was dangerous.

They call it Deja Vu when they see it all happen again
But there isn't any time to remain blinded and be in pain
For the best healer is time, it has it's strange ways
The unsaid will be understood. It's just a matter of days
But it doesn't mean you shouldn't ever give it your best try,
The only thing to give into your vacillating mind to fry
Is to keep a track of things how you could've made right,
Because there will always be a day, however long be the night.

-Aishwariy

Juvenile ?

There is a buzz about India these days, that India is a country of the youth. The young population being very large in numbers and promising at the same time is considered to denote energy, and novel thoughts and perceptions for the country. A whole new horizon is in sight and with everyone being so enthusiastic, a new dawn awaits. This phase comes and goes for every country and may also be called one of the most efficient times for a country. Although it's a surety that this phase will pass, apparently for India this phase will pass much more quickly. Why? just for a simple reason. That is the increase in the mental maturity of the youth. Or at least what the Youth thinks as "Maturity". It seems the youth is in the 'self- destruct' mode of "Development". (pun intended)

Two quick facts:
The rate of suicide among senior secondary students has increased. Crimes committed by "Juveniles" are increasing, which has even led the Court to pass a verdict on the trial of a Juvenile as an adult as per how heinous the crime was. These are some highly depressing things. Anyhow, lets dig a little deeper for a reason as there usually is one(at least :P) behind something most of the times.

Some days back, a kid was drilled in the head(Yes! Literally drilled) by another, reason being allegedly the drilled one liked someone the driller didn't want him to like. And as I say "a kid" I am referring to a "6th Grader". (Shocked?) . On some another day in a different bunch of kids, A scratch on the ego of a kid proved to be fatal for his friend. Let's say that whatever these kids thought they were doing was mature, but isn't is naive to think that you are mature when you are not actually?(food for thought :P) So where from are these kids getting a notion of what is mature and what not and what is to be done to satisfy the ego issues?

The Know It All Paradox:
This is a feat of the modern day kids. (Depth Alert! Take a deep breath before continuing :P )The Know it all paradox simply states that if a person claims to know at least something about everything, then he must also know something about anything that he doesn't know. But then if he knows nothing about what he doesn't know, then he doesn't know something about everything. Moreover if he knows something about the things he doesn't know, then again he doesn't know something about everything. (Yeah right! take a moment :P )

Then there are suicide cases where kids say they are under severe pressure and can't handle it. To kid that I would say, you almost did a great job assessing the pressure. And that's all what was required of you. Nothing else that you did was actually necessary. It was not a life and death situation and was made up completely by your mind and no one else. 

And what is even worse is what they are doing is a 'mature' thing, leaving everyone alone(including themselves), escaping from the alleged pressures that they have to face every time they are doing something. However, the way they choose to do this isn't something that should be acceptable. Well to be fair enough, after being in a similar situation some day or the other, I personally feel that we can't say that everything was the kids' fault. 

The Blame Game:
Lets play a little blame game.(Yeah Like you didn't see it coming :P). Everyone (almost :P) agrees that the system, the school students are subjected to, these days is not flawless which it must be, mustn't it? I mean you are a developing country relying on the youth and are not even able to educate the youth in a proper way then what in the heaven's name will your future be? Another 45 year old Youth icon ? or another 28 year old student who claims he is poor and apparently is not doing anything for that? (Apart from sensationalizing of course :P). Or some other bunch of people who find being in their own country so 'shameful' that they shout out things about mincing of the country into pieces? 

With the economic conditions getting tougher and the parents staying out most of  the time to earn bread, it's a huge responsibility for a school to work on the moral aspect of the character of the students. But what are the schools providing? A recent case was of a Final Practical Exam where the external asked the kids to sing and dance in lieu of the viva. This was a 'reputed' so called "Urban school" from the Country Capital. Let's better not talk about what the situation in the rural areas is. Just believe me it is much more frightening.It is alleged that the isolation of the kids from their parents and the things that matter is because of the advent of technology. Kids use so much of smart things that they end up believing they are smart themselves, but sadly enough the reality is not as it appears to them.

Added to this is what is served on the Televisions and the Media these days. Agreed to the point that the kids are not forced to watch whatever is shown on the TV they can always change the channel (Of Course :P ). I prefer to bring to light the fact that after bearing with a blue cat from a Japanese TV show that teaches (yeah right ! ) stuff to the kids, the kids watch stuff which isn't even meant for them to comprehend. Crime shows do not always make them think on how will they get away from being murdered. But every time when in the end the criminal is caught, it may challenge their wit on how to get away with murder (pun intended :P ).

Where do we Go now?:
The need of the hour is to understand the disguised truth behind this depressing situation and if at all it raises your eyebrows for even a single millisecond, try thinking something that will make things better. And at the least, whenever you find an opportunity, just try to talk through the situation of a kid in distress. Because it's the future of the country we are dealing with.

-Aishwariy

India and Trypophobia.

Disclaimer: Following is a blog post based on too many "could be"s. Definitely, most of the possibilities are absurd, and are open for interpretation as well as discussion.


So, lets begin with a buzzword in the field of biological sciences from last year "Trypophobia". Trypophobia is claimed as the phenomenon of  having a phobia of regular/irregularly shaped and spaced clustered patterns. It was more commonly promoted as the fear of holes among those, who were really busy most the time (pun intended.) checking their facebook news feeds for something new. Rather lets call it on "Social Media" ... sounds official(kind of.. :P).

Trypophobia " not a phobia officially " is indeed quite absurd, Reasons being the strange hype created for it, the usage of photoshop to disguise disgust as fear, and the biggest one of all, circulating it all over the Social media to make even the narcissistic ones think for a while if they "suffer" from this phobia. This was mostly all about the issues from abroad. However, Trypophobia seems a bit more relevant to India.

In India, we have some(I understand this word is an understatement. :P ) roads that may rattle up (in either of the meanings.) any driver from the inside as well as outside. The fear can be seen on the face of the person driving the cars on such roads. The sounds of the internals of the passengers are a story that only the passengers can tell. So, this fear is quite justified, in terms of it's version in India the fear of "great Hol(e)y Roads". Its being called "trypophobia" that is close to '"trip"ophobia'(Just Assuming) fears of trips or voyages.. and the other way, fear of tripping over a hole. :P...

Having stated that, now a days, road travelers face strange kind of issues while driving. Like bloody red fluids floating around their personal spaces and on the roads, special stunts by the local biking "professionals" (pun intended.). And expert comments like "drive while looking behind.." etc.. etc... We'll come to that some other day.

Coming back to India and Trypophobia, India observes it's National flower as Lotus. This could make us call Lotus Seeds as the National Seeds.(Just Assuming.)  Trypophobia has a special relation with India in this sense as well. Lotus Pods have some sort of holes that can be described as "regularly spaced". Moreover, most of the horrifying photoshopped images making people wonder about this phobia were based on these pods, making these holes appear out of no where on strange places. This makes a really strong bond between India and Trypophobia. It could be declared as a national phobia. Although, the phobias of corruption, starvation and proper running of the parliament give it a really tough competition.

There is a very fine line between disgust and fear. You could be disgusted by the things that the people intend to show you in the name of a test for trypophobia and may even feel like throwing up. But the point is that are you really afraid? Or is it just the mind game of some notorious braggadocio that is bothering you. Its just a matter of time and thought that you give to the legitimacy of anything that you see on the Social Media. These things can simply shape up your opinions and challenge the open-mindedness, which becomes a point of vulnerability here.
So just before thinking about being scared of "holes"... just think don't you have something better to be afraid of ?

-Aishwariy.

The Clarity

When the last traces of the excess adrenaline that was released into you for reacting sanely to the Shock you just faced, start fading away, they project a sense of clarity at the back of the head.(Yeah! too deep! read that line again if needed :P (*I did :P)). This sense of clarity is something that leads to serenity. A peace "station" that you had been trying to reach since a long time, but one thing or the other bothered you.(Or maybe only you felt that they were bothering. p(bur)un intended..). The bigger question is why were you trying to reach that spot, when it was right inside your head?(Yes. Going too deep. Take a breath and continue.) Was it because you thought you would accomplish something from where you are standing right now, or maybe a few steps ahead or backwards from here? Or was it because you thought you were on the completely wrong foots (pardon for that grammar but it sounded kind of interesting :) ) all along with everything that you have been doing till now? 

Alright, no more questioning yourself. Let's get back to the point, or rather that unspoken clarity that was just obtained from the bodily chemicals. This clarity is a Game Changer. It makes you do stuff. Stuff that you think you "should". (Mind that word and think again). This clarity is probably one of the biggest driving forces ever that could get your things done by you for you, that too with you not knowing about it. fair enough? Probably yes I guess. Many people will agree too.(I can just hope.. right? :P ). 

Anyways, so what next? What after this clarity and doing all that you actually wanted? Life goes on, Right? So lets better concentrate on the Prequel, rather than the Sequel. It seems that we began with the excess Adrenaline receding. Where from it came into the picture anyways ?  From the shock. The shock that you just felt and which made the synapses go wild passing all the impulses and giving a picture(not a visual, a mental one. yeah going even deeper! :P) of how worse it could be. And its only sane to get the clarity moment after the neurons are back to senses. But the only thing to think is how sane is it to get the clarity moment only and only after the shocks? The nature keeps it all in the equilibrium.(Believe me it does!)  

Brain food is peace of mind. A sense of clarity that allows you to think. But there is no scope for the brain to become obese.(Yeah you got that right. avoid the overeating :P). There can be diverse ways in which your brain feels peaceful. Interact with it, know about it's mysteries.(Caution:Strictly figurative!)  Open it up. And get to know it better. All that you can do is make it free enough to process something. And interestingly, it can even generate it's own raw material. So better keep it healthy with some peace.

All problems "may" have some kind of connection. Maybe the solution to one will solve say another 'n' in your head. Or a miss for some problem may solve another 'K*n'.{Where K>1.}(Couldn't help with that. Math Calls :P ) You never know. But the point here is to follow a regime by which its not the "nature" or  "uncertainty" that desperately "pushes" you to a situation to bring up the clarity moment. But it's you yourself who does that. And yeah in that process try opening yourself up!! (Yeah Right..  NOT Literally!).

-Aishwariy

The Strange Turn of Events.

It all began with the Murders of Activists and Writers of the likes of M.M. Kalburgi, Govind Pansare and Narendra Dabholkar, (the former two dying more recently). Apart from the similarity in how they died, another similarity among them was that two of them were Anti-Superstition activists and one quoted something about idol worship. Yes, apparently the stuff they supported was deemed as Anti-Hindu.

Their murders triggered the "Award Returning Trend".(Yes! it wasn't just an impulsive frustrated call for gaining popularity... (initially at least.)).

Coincidentally, when all this was going on, there was another act of brutality, where a man (a muslim person) from Dadari was lynched for allegedly killing a cow. This again was deemed as Anti- Hindu.

(Just to be precise... Killing the poor Cow... and unfortunately not the Man! :| )

This was the exact point when things started getting Communal, and intolerance got mixed up with communal intolerance.

Meanwhile, gripped in unrest, many of the Artists and writers and Scientists kept returning their awards as a mark of protest against the happenings and against the ways of the Government (and Sahitya Akademi too) who did not condemn these murders, allegedly spreading a sense of insecurity among the people, who apparently wanted to be " reassured" that everything will be fine, and there's nothing to worry about.

And then all of this was continued with playing one-sided "Ink holi" with people whose views were not much appreciated by the "side".

Then this fire was given some Political oxygen for efficient Combustion during the Bihar Elections because by now, the whole attention got focussed against the Hon'ble PM of India, who was deemed as the symbol of intolerance and his party, a promoter of Intolerance.
This fire just got way too much Oxygen resulting to a majority of the Carbon-di-oxide of Bihar, getting exhaled into the Legislative Assembly.

And this brings us to the Present day. Where many are urging to boycott Aamir's movies and the goods that he Endorses.(I know right.. Way too Strange turn of Events :P ).

People feel that he said that all the people in the country are intolerant. Everyone has something to say to him(Well, Not to try to prove that they are tolerant, instead that they are not Intolerant (P.S. Yes These are different.!!!)). And things got so much heated up that a hashtag called #BuildRamMandir creeped up from nowhere and got trending.... preposterous isn't it?(Again.... Way too Strange turn of events).

This strange turn of events is nothing more than Attenuation of thoughts.

Some people started by saying that Aamir says India is intolerant and he says his wife wants to leave the country. Others added some more things to make him sound more like a traitor and forwarded the new version of the "view". And some took out some of their precious time to make a Graphical Comparison between a Martyr's widow and Aamir's wife. And then there were the remaining people... Who just saw the things, felt something (maybe :P (can't deny that... India Feels too much you know..)), and then shared the view everywhere, making misconceptions prevalent and spreading strange unrest. Very few actually bothered to go through a simple authenticity check of what was actually said. (Yes! a simple video that could be simply used to simplify the issues that were being raised.)

The main substance drifted far away from where it should have been, and the reason are the people who are ready to believe in everything that they are "told" blindly, without checking the authenticity or the reason behind it. Sounds familiar? relates to Superstitions? Doesn't it? yeah! infact it does.

So in a nutshell, right now what we are doing is something unreasonable to prove that we do not do unreasonable things, and it is exactly the "something unreasonable" which was opposed by some people who were then murdered for opposing it as according to some other people, what they were doing was something unreasonable!! peculiar.(Too big a Nutshell that was :P)

This is a really Strong Example of why literacy should just not only be about reading words and being able to operate a smartphone. Rather it should be something that enables a person to think in some direction that is actually relevant. The right to speech and freedom of expression are all disastrous unless we really understand our Responsibilities with them.

We are still in the denial phase, thinking that nothing is wrong. But actually a lot needs to be worked upon. And to start with, the least that we could do is be a bit more "Tolerant".

-Aishwariy

Round The World

Week 31 of 2015 just passed by. One of the most dramatic weeks ever. 

Monday witnessed the sad demise of Dr. APJ Abdul Kalam former Indian President, a retired Scientist by profession, a Teacher by choice and most important of all, an Inspiration for the youth. The biggest highlight of this incident was his place of death...his workplace...a Stage... from where he already had enlightened so many souls and reached out to so many probable future-makers of the Nation.

His most important virtue of working for every single available minute was seen to be respected on the very next day of his death, by the Hon'ble Supreme Court, where, the hearing was held at 3 AM in the midnight regarding the mercy petition filed yet again to avoid the hanging of Yakub Memon, which was scheduled for the very next day. Eventually, the petition was scraped off "again" by the Court, and the culprit of the 1993 Mumbai Serial Blasts was hanged to death on the next or say the same day as was scheduled.The irony being his death on his birthday.

The biggest irony of this whole case was Yakub's involvement in the blasts, in spite of being a an edurite. A Chartered Accountant by profession, he was charged guilty of financing terror operations. Many controversies raised before and after his hanging. Many People came up in support of him, many came up against him, and as usual, many even came up against those who came up for him . These people included actors, Cabinet Members, MPs and even a few Governors, and last but not the least the Common Indians who have been empowered to keep their views now-a-days via the social media. Support for him was also displayed at his final crusade when he was brought back to Mumbai.

Another irony related with these incidents was the burial of Dr. Kalam and Yakub which took place on the very same day.On one hand was a person who devoted his life completely for his country and the pursuit of knowledge and the betterment of the people and the society, and on the other was one who felt just too mainstream to be loyal to his motherland, and played a role in disrupting others' lives instead, both sent off forever on the same day. However, one will stay Alive forever and keep inspiring everyone. 

These events clearly indicate, it's not just the Knowledge that matters, but the attitude does too. On a similar note the IPL spot-fixing culprits, in spite of being cleared by the court were shown no mercy by the BCCI. 

Another event of mercilessness occurred earlier this week when Gurdaspur in Punjab was struck by the terrorists on Monday,claiming the life of SP Baljeet Singh of Punjab Police, a martyr to the brutality of Terrorism. This attack was claimed to be executed by 3 gunmen, who were later claimed to be from across the border. Another attack technically not physical but mental and of similar intensity took place in Srinagar where flags of Pakistan, IS and LeT were held high over a Mosque, trying to spark up a rebellion and unrest among the people. This attack was potentially devastating to an extent equal to the other event of the Parliamentary chaos, where the House was fighting over the religion of Terrorism. The Parliamentary Panel suggested mechanism for single-window redressal to all investor Problems.

Talking about window, Windows 10 was finally Launched in India, this week.. which gained a whooping more than 14 million users all over the world within few days of launch. The highlight of this event was the homage paid to Dr. Kalam on stage, during the launch. The personality that will remain alive and keep on inspiring everyone forever... 

Coming back to Square one ... That's exactly why it's said.. Round the World.

The Next Week Awaits...
Cheers till then..

-Aishwariy

Yes! Maybe! Someday I'll Fly....

The sun has risen up, stars are going down.

I was looking for answers in the night sky.

Tried and found out, the facts that were stout,

Always had a mind completely full of doubts.

Some way I tried to runaway from everyone,

Always tried to wipe off all the mistakes that I'd done.

Maybe I rose, maybe I tumbled down,

But I knew it's never always been for the crown.

Maybe I was dumb, maybe I was the clown,

But never felt the urge just to settle down.

All that I could mean, All that I could say,

Maybe there was a way by which all could stay.

Someday I will rise, again, with a reprise, 

Maybe all that I need is a blessing in disguise.

There will be a day that I won't despise.

And I'll be all through in the blue skies.

Earth keeps turning, Things move on,

stars still come out in my night sky

I have a thought, and I do believe,

that Someday I'll be ready to fly.

Till then in the making, for the big flight

All that I need is to stay uptight. 

Yes I've been wrong,Oh Yes I've been right

And I won't ever give up in between the fight. 

Yes it's been rough, Yes I've seen the tough.

But never ever gave up it all to the fright.

All that I could mean,  All that I could say,

Maybe there was a way by which all could stay.

Someday I will rise, again, with a reprise, 

Maybe all that I need is a blessing in disguise.

There will be a day that I won't despise.

And I'll be all through in the blue skies.

All I know that can be done is to move on.

And on that way, anyone like me will get torn,

I've been through the thorns, I've been through all the wrongs,

Now I know there's no turning back again.

Cause all the turns end up in that alley of pains.

I've had enough, not going there again.

I'll fight for my stars, I'll try for my scars

That's all I can do, I am not from Mars.

Things will keep moving and I will keep proving,

Whatever I've learnt and whatever I've earnt.

All that I could mean, All that I could say,

Maybe there was a way by which all could stay.

Someday I will rise, again, with a reprise, 

Maybe all that I need is a blessing in disguise.

There will be a day that I won't despise.

And I'll be all through in the blue skies.

-Aishwariy